Addiction struggles?

[Avsha531]

Avsha, thank you for your input.

Fortunately my daughter truly does want to recover. Because of this we have had hours upon hours of talking honestly between us. While I am only a “normie” I believe my daughter has given me great insight into the mind of the addict and the disease. I try not to be judgmental and I try to be more concerned and understanding.

I appreciate your words, spot on and so true.

If I learned anything, it’s that feeding the disease/addiction is THE ONLY priority. Nothing on heaven or earth comes before feeding the disease.

Your daughter is so fortunate to have you in her life, understanding addiction as the disease it is. Growing up in an Orthodox Jewish community, it was very misunderstood and it was considered a moral defect. Always mistreated and kept hush hush. I never knew the answer to the question "why don't you just stop?"

It was a difficult and painful battle, but there is hope! Personally for me, I am very involved in meetings and such, and for me I know that is what I need and will need forever, and I have accepted that. Been blessed with a life beyond my wildest dreams, and I truly believe that.

You know, people always talk about needing to hit bottom. I've lost my house, 2 cars, a lucrative career, and was homeless in Baltimore city years ago. I had no money for food, but managed to find the other stuff. That wasn't my bottom, though to all appearances it should have been. My bottom came years later, with a relapse following some clean time. I was lying in my bed at 3am sweating and shaking, in pure terror and agony, and I realized what they said to me about the disease was true, and I really had it. If I wanted what others around me had, then i needed to do what they did with no more reservations.

I cried out for help, and help came. That was my bottom.

A little something I'd like to share for you, your daughter, and anyone else about this "bottom" that gets thrown around: hitting bottom is when your life if falling apart faster than you can lower your standards

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