Thank you for all your replies everyone. I just am still not sure anything will help. To make a point, this is NOT over the girlfriend. This is over the life altering decision she made, as well as all the little stuff that has built up over the years.

I am just not sure what to do anymore. Nothing seems to help. To those who said check my thyroid etc. That was already done a year ago or so when I started to get this bad.

I have talked to plenty of people and just don't like what they have to say. To that effect, yes I am not telling everything. If I did, a lot more of you would be saying things I don't like. Also, some of the reasons I would be hesitant to leave the GF are better left to QT or unsaid.

And BG, if I could afford a vacation, I would take one. I used up all my vacation time working a 2nd job, and when my gf was in the hospital anyway.

To the people who offered to hook me up with chicks, (sorry I just read like a novels worth of posts and i just woke up and don't remember who said it) I wouldn't find one that I was happy with.

Thanks everyone for trying to help.