Quote Originally Posted by Raptor View Post
I expect it's due to them attempting to wrap their minds around my point of view, which isn't easy. The people who live with me can't. As for emotions, I'm sure I was born with them, I just suspect one of the medications I took went and messed everything up.
I'll pipe in here

Raptor, you sound so much like me when I was younger. Probably from 12-16 or 17, I felt very similarly to you about pretty much everything you brought up. To the point it was uncanny, and I wasn't sure if I should post or not. But I figured I might as well.

Truth was, after kicking my depression (which coincided with this time) and dealing with a pretty crappy hand in life (getting with a guy for 6 years, then having him leave me for his pregnant other girlfriend, but only after emptying my bank accounts), everything just kind of switched over after a while. Almost like a reboot of my system, if you will. Took years, though. I still have moments where I feel extremely disconnected with the world.

Fortunately, I met my other half and we are both very similar. Not huge fans of people, or crowds. Not sure if we want children, or not. This helped, because nobody else up until that point ever 'got me'. He expressed the same thing. So now we have each other to lean on, and understand that we both share similar limitations and desires. Some days, we just do our own thing and don't talk much. Other times, we'll have totally goofy nights where we order pizza and play video games until the wee hours.

Basically, don't worry about it. Whatever it is you feel comfortable with now is what works for you now. If you change later, great. If you don't, great. You're not out to please anybody else. Nobody else is going to look out for you, or go out of their way to make you happy. Maybe someday someone very special might, but no one should ever make you feel like you're 'wrong' right now.

Everyone has those bleak days. Everyone has days when they just want to walk out of their job and say: "I don't want to deal with anybody today." You're just open about that fact, and I think people see that as something to 'help' with or try to 'fix'. In reality, it's their strange way of wanting to help you, by cheering you up or trying to get you out of your 'funk'. Lord knows my mother tried, haha.

But it'll all work out. It's your life. Your comfort zone. You'll realize what makes you happy. And what makes you happy will change as times go on. As long as you're happy with who you are, that's all that counts.