Thats wonderful! Yes, there are some T's you just do not want to handle. I do have a few T's in my collection that I handle but I have several that love finger snacks so handling is off limits.
Believe it or not, I use to be afraid as well. I ended up buying a rosehair like most hobbyist and I just fell in love. Pretty much, I just started getting as many spiders as I could and to this day, I still do!
I generally do not recommend rosehairs because they can be tempermental and they can fast for long periods of time-this usually freaks beginners out. I recommend a Curlyhair or a Pink Zebra beauty if you want a good handling tarantula.
Nice to meet you!