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I must say I'm slowly overcoming my fear of spiders, and I've come a long way! lol. I used to be the kind of person that if they saw a spider I'd stand on top of a chair and scream at my brother to go put it outside, but never really killed any. At the place where I work we have two rose haired T's, and I've held it a few times, and last week I picked Legs (our RHT) out of his cage on my own, lol. Now for bigger T's I wont hold them, but I have no problems looking at them! lol.