Like I mentioned, I don't think anybody here is out to make you fail or even wish bad things upon you. I'm in the same boat with you a lot more than you'd like to think. I used to suffer from Bipolar Depression and was on 4 different medications at one point, I know what it's like to think the entire world is out to get you so you snap at everybody. I just think you owe yourself better than to fend people off the way you do. Take care of yourself, and relax. Just breathe =]