Definitely This. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
I read through this thread all 46 posts and agree with all the information that my fellow keepers have given. The loss of a pet / breeder animal is never easy. Especially under circumstances such as these. I was so touched by the OP story that I am going out on a limb to offer to him/ her one of the baby pastels that I will have soon. My super pastel 100% het pied is gravid from a pairing to my visual pastel leopard clown. Totally on me and we can share pertinent information in a private message as far as the details are concerned.
Better to give than receive. My answer to the call for Help!