Wow! Grats to you for being a pillar of strength for all those around you. Now it's time for you to manage your life so you can stabilize yourself and your situation. Then, and only then can you return to helping those around you. Years ago I read a book titled "Changes" and although it was based on a love story it chronicled the difficulties of life and living. You have been missed around here so don't go too far away.![]()