Moving on with my life

[RamMac]

After 14 + plus of years of being with my boyfriend we have decided that it is best we both we both move on with our lives. I have lived here and been a caretaker for his elderly father for nearly 2 1/2 years but I am just burned out and can't do it anymore. My boyfriend's father has multiple serious health issues since his massive heart attack in April of 2015. I have gotten out of the reptile keeping hobby altogether which is kind of sad and I really miss it. I have given up every single animal I own because on September 1, 2017 I move out of this house to start my own life and get the help I need. I have long struggled with bipolar disorder, PTSD, and anxiety, and I just need to get help, which I can't do out here in a rural setting.

It hurts a lot knowing I am giving up the man I love but I have got to help myself. I find much comfort coming here everyday and reading all of your posts and seeing the pictures of your snakes. BP.Net has always been my second home and always will be. I have made a lot of great friends on here and you are always supportive. For that I am forever grateful and thankful.

Get the help you need. I lost my job of 6yrs due to my severe anxiety and depression last November. I had put it off for years due to embarrassment and the stigma attached to mental health issues. I was also in law enforcement so I was afraid of it ending my career, which it ultimately did but it was much needed. I finally sought the help I needed and although I still have agonizing days and sleepless nights therapy and family support helps a ton. Take care of yourself first, I finally did and things seem much brighter for my future. This hobby definitely keeps my mind focused enough to bring relief from my symptoms. Good luck and don't lose hope.