Ok if you don't think it was your fault then i guess that is your opinion. From what you said, all evidence would indicate it was your fault though lol.
Ask rabernet about her feedings. Shes said before that out of 20K plus live feedings, she can count on one hand the number of times something serious has happened. Imo, the risk of messing up feeding f/t is about the same percentage. Therefore, neither one is safer than the other. Im not stating that as an opinion, its a fact that both have a certain amount of risk involved that makes them equally risky. If you wanna say one is better than the other, thats fine though, idrc.