I like rodents too, I feed f/t so it's not too bad for me since they are already dead by the time I get them. I had to feed live to one of my babies, after much trial and error she realized she only wanted live hopper mice. I attempted a live rat fuzzie, he survived the night in the tub with her, I didn't have the heart to kill him so I bottle fed him and raised him up, now he's my pet. I love him so much that I felt bad he was home alone while I was at work so I saved another feeder rat and now he has a friend. I'm suck a sucker. I feed live if I have to, but I don't enjoy it.