That sucks. I don't care how big of a man someone may be... your not a true man unless you shed tears.But I know how you feel man... as I was typing that about my cat I started crying and my eyes are still wet. After having animals for so long in your family.... its like a mother, father, brother or sister that you lose. It really sucks but its part of life and just think... when its your time to go. They will be at rainbow bridge to greet you.