For some reason I imagined you were a boy up until you said "Im a girl BTW" and I have no idea why. It seems alot is being put on your family at once. Most of us could handle that i each thing came seperately but together??? I would crack. Its good to hear that you haven't just given up on life like many people do and still want to be a nurse (I want to be a dental nurse... Snap), but so much for you to have on your shoulders. Just keep helping out and leave it to your parents to decide what happens (although it seems your dad already has without telling you guys. I can't imagine how it feels so all i can say is hang in there, you seem very smart so thats good.