That took a lot of balls (pun intended! hehe) to come post this. While I haven't done the same thing, I do understand how easily one could get carried away. A friend of mine in highschool lied very seriously about some extremely major things (like her health) and only in later years did I come to realize how badly she must have been hurting to feel the need to do that- that she felt only that would get her some of the attention and love she truly just NEEDED. I hope by now, many years later, she has realized that she was just fine as she was- we loved her for who she is. You don't have to have anything "fancy" to be liked here. We have members with one pet normal- their snake is just as special as the most amazing morph from the biggest breeder. Maybe more special- because someone loves it as a pet! So... keep learning, appreciate what you have, and while waiting sucks- we're all always waiting for that elusive thing we think and hope will make us happy- you'll get your dream snakes in good time. Two years ago, I didn't have a ball python... now I have 20 of them including two pieds. Wow! You just never know