Social Anxiety/Anxiety and Depression

[Axel28]

Well, I thought I would make something for everyone to kinda understand what I go through my everyday life.....

So, explaining this is kinda hard... I guess I'll start from the beginning of my story that I actually remember.

I was very young about maybe 8(?) when I woke up to watch mine, my mom, and my Aunts favorite show, Angel, and we knew something was wrong when we noticed she hasn't got up yet, so, I knocked on her door and well she didn't answer... so my mom got the key to the door and we discovered she was dead... I cannot remember what she died from, but when she open the door, I knew immediately something was wrong.. my mom called the Ambulance and they couldn't do anything but take her away, all I could do was cry, she was one of my best friends even if I was young....

Next thing that makes me upset is my Grandma, she also died in the same room, though, I never really had a relationship with her, it still hurts, I do not know the cause of her death...

I now sleep in the same room they both died in and I actually feel more comfortable in that room.

That was just depression, I think of that stuff A LOT!

Now, my real worst enemy... Anxiety...

Ever since I remember I have had anxiety and it just keep getting worse and worse, so anyways, I couldn't eat in front of people or even talk in front of people I would whisper so no one could hear me. Now I am getting better and trying to get a job, maybe it'll crack my shell a lot more.

Next SOCIAL ANXIETY:

Okay, I may have lied, this is my worst enemy...

I cannot do anything in public without freaking out, but lately I have been fine.
I am trying my best to conquer it and go to GED classes so I can go to college.
I wanna be a Vet/Vet Assistant and I believe I can do it, but I am TERRIFIED of going into a room full of people. What if they stare at me and think I am weird? What if they try to talk to me and I don't know what to say or do? Also if they tried to talk to me, I might freeze up.

Anyways, I think that is all I will share. I will share ONE more thing, I do go to a counselor for all this and it does really help, but anyways thank you for reading and I am sorry if this was to personal but I just wanted to get this out so hopefully some people can see that EVERYONE they see might just have a problem. May it be Anxiety, Social Anxiety, and Depression.


But Thank You for reading and I hope that EVERYONE who feels this ways doesn't feel alone anymore.