A little nervous and scared

[ballpythonluvr]

I had made a previous thread about needing ECT. I start my treatments on Monday. It will we every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday for a month that I get the treatments. I am just a little scared. I want to feel better though so I am getting the treatments. It has been a very long hard road dealing with the manic ups and downs and severe depression of bipolar disorder. I had lost all hope for a very long time and nearly gave up everything. If I didn't have my fiancé in my corner, I would have given up all together. He has been my rock and my reason to keep going. I have far to much to live for to just sit here quietly and give up.