I need to lose 200+ Pounds! The time has come to lose it!
All righty people of the world! Its time for some change. I need to change. I have had a hard life. Not as bad as some peoples but it sure wasnt easy. Why do I say that well here is a small back story to my life.
So I grew up with a very abusive father. He not that I can recall ever hit me. But I constantly watched him hit my sisters and my mother. Watched him kick the crap out of his "best friends" I watched him do hard drugs and try to kill him self. I watched my sisters cry and my mother bawl her eyes out everyday. Well thankfully that came to an end. My mother and sisters and I all took a plane to Europe and lived in the small country of Belgium for 8 months. I had just turned 7 at that time.
Fast forward to age 8 and I am starting a new school in a new town back in Canada. Well I have always been a husky kid always a little chubby and then it really started to show in elementary school so I really really started to get picked on and bullied. I was getting punched and beat up every day. Verbally abused like crazy and even to the point were people would throw things like rocks at me.
After 4 horrible years of elementary school I entered high school at 230 pounds at age 13. All the teasing and bullying really died down in high school thanks to everyone finally growing up and maturing. Yah now I would get rude comment here and there but nothing I couldnt handle.
So enter age 15. I am now 250 lbs. Life was changing for me though. I was actually starting to lose weight I was getting really active and having the time of my life! One of the best and WORST summers ever. Why the worst you ask?
August 15th 2007 3:45PM (yes I remember the time I have a great memory)
My mother,sister and I are in a car accident that has forever changed my life. We are all alive and ok but all have spinal injuries and neck and shoulder injuries as well.
This is ONE of the big things that has to do with my gaining alot of weight because the pain has made me inactive for 5 years and it was and is really hard to find the ambition to get out of bed in the morning.
So car accident made me into a huge (literally) procrastinator and lazy slob. BUT like thats not enough eh?
fast forward to October 29th 2011 10pm. I was 18 and about 390 pounds.
My house catches fire and fully burns down the following morning. My family and I loose everything we own with no insurance at all. So depression from that really made me push the 400 lb mark and brings me to where I am today.
May 31st 2012 2:20am. 19 years old. 425 (not exactly) pounds. I am not sure of this weight since I dont have a scale around me that goes over 400.
So this brings me to now. I have decided that this is it. I need to lose weight NOW! I am going to die within the next few years if things dont change. I spend my days laying in bed or sitting on the couch doing nothing but browsing the internet looking at stupidly cute pictures of cats. I am slowly killing myself and it needs to stop. I need to LIVE I have been alive for 19 years now and havent even lived yet.
I want to be able to look at my self in the mirror and see the real me. The one who is trapped inside a box wanting to burst out.
So what am I going to do? Well starting tomorrow or well I guess today since its 2 30am. I am getting the ball rolling. I am changing my life. I am changing my diet. My activities. My everything needs to change.
So I am going to make a Twitter account, Facebook support page, BLOG, and a account on youtube so I can VLOG atleast a few times a week or more to do updates or whatever.
But the thing is. I have tried doing this alone so many times and have failed again and again. I NEED YOUR HELP! I need everyone's support on this. I need you all to help me with anything and everything.
Im not sure what else to type lol So yah this is starting now. I am getting on making the accounts and stuff and gunna have a good nights sleep and then get that ball rolling. Gotta change now or I will crash and burn.
Thanks for reading everyone.
With love, reptiliachnids.
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