I have a secret.
I am one of those people, that no matter the smile on my face & how happy I am.

I am completely broken inside

I should be happy, I just moved out & into my own apartment.
I am finally away from everything, on my own.
I am getting a restraining order on my ex.
I haven't slept more than 3 hours in 2 days, i'm having nightmares.
My family is falling apart.
& I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to.
My roomate doesn't understand, because she has a amazing family.
People who support her, a mother who doesn't say
"Get over it" When you come to her balling, and in pain and doesn't want to talk to you because she is to busy moving far away from you with her new boyfriend.

I am losing my composure, I am so tired that I am not cooherant.
I feel like my animals are all I have, and I don't know how much more I can take.

My ex has threatened my life, and has made me paranoid so I don't want to go anywhere.

I am 21 years old, and just want to give up everything. I don't have anyone.
Someone please tell me why I should even try anymore.