I can only respond to what you write.
You brought up the market and it's affect on you personally.
Seems to me you're saying one thing and doing another.
What's the word for that....... oh yeah, hypocrit, or hypocrite, however you wish to spell it. Those two are the generally accepted spelling of that word.
It's not an attack. It's an observation and a statement based on facts provided by you and ONLY you.