Don't take it personally, it may not have anything to do with you, she may be going into shed or something else may be up.

I don't know what they feel, or don't feel, they live in their own reality. But I do hope with enough careful handling my BP will learn to be relaxed while being held and hanging out as he gets older. He may not get ecstatic over it but I hope he will be truly okay with it and not just barely tolerating it.