Understandable...by the same token, not everyone here understands the desire to own a "hundred foot per dollar" (ok, figuratively speaking) snake, either.
My main point here is that this isn't the type of behavior I've seen that is characteristic of you...normally you seem to be a very conscientious keeper who is VERY into his retics. Think about taking that enthusiasm & helping others learn. I know you have some awesome snakes....you should post a few pics here so we can all see why you enjoy them so much!!!
K~