I'm so very sorry to read of Happy's passing and your difficulties in getting the humans around you to help you help him. That must have been gawd awful and only added to your distress, which is great enough when saying goodbye to a lifelong equine friend.

Perhaps when you feel up to it you might like to share some photos of you and Happy over those years as a tribute to him. I know many members here love horses and would enjoy sharing your good memories, as well as providing you the comfort of knowing exactly how you feel to lose a beautiful animal like Happy. I'm sure Happy lived a wonderful life with you and will be greatly missed but warmly remembered always.