WOW. what can I say. I appreciate all your responses very much. Its releaving to know im not alone with this. I have not decided what I see myself doing in ten years. My mom tells me to take it one day at a time. Ill stick with that for now. No I am not in advanced courses. The teachers never recommended me for them which I don't know why we didn't ignore the recomendations anyway but now its a double edged sword. My mom says I cant because my grades are low which they really aren't. But my grades are lower because I am bored. I know exactly what I have to do But it is a different story tring to do it. I do try and haven't given up yet. I will try and it may or may not work out so. And as far as me not talking to them its for their own protection. I tried seeing a counsiler but I just didn't like it. He was good but. I know they can't help but worry, I worried about my pets over my 8 day vacation even though I got 2 good pet sitters one being my sister who shares in my intrests about pets anyway. (btw my vacation sucked by the way because the store didn't get a cd I had wanted for months and it would come out while I was away which absolutly ruined my trip.) Thank you everyone I think the first day of school I won't be as miserable but I will still be miserable just because my summers over. I am glad to know that I can come here if I really can't go to my parents there should be more sites like this one where people can share about what they are intrested in ask questions if they are unsure and also if they just feel down be comforted by people who care. thank you again words cannot express my gratitude.

Ps. California Kingsnake or BP is still cant decide. Maybe I will get one and then the other later...