I remember Junior year being especially hard. While I did very well in schoolI also knew I wanted to be a marine mammal trainer which required a college degree. My goals helped to motivate me most of the time. It is very hard to find motivation though when you can's see results right away. I actually teach high school biology and just finished my master's degree in May...if it makes you feel any better about half way through my program I felt I wasn't getting much from the classes and really wanted to just stop. But I knew I had to do it (even if it seemed silly or unimportant) if I wanted to keep teaching, which I LOVE, then I had to do it. Unfortuntately, one thing you learn as you get older is with all the freedoms to make your own choices you actually have a lot of factors the limit your choices: time, money, responsibilities. You do a lot of things you may not want to do just to pay the bills or to make it to the point where you CAN do the things you want.

Just know that even adults suffer from bouts of insecurities, inabilities to make decisions, and utter confusion. The upside to all of this is that there are things worth doing it all for! Embrace the things you love and look at the rest as the drudge you must do to continue to do those things. The best way to make it through is to find what truly motivates you because no one else can do it for you.

My lowest point had nothing to do with school but with a bad relationship in college and a weight gain that put me at 220 lbs. No amount of parental/friendly advice could help me out of that one (though the support was much appreciated). I had to find my own reasons to make a change and once I did I stuck to it. I was confident enough to leave the relationship and lost 90 lbs.

I do suggest you talk about it, because while no one else may motivate you, talking to others will help you sort out what your feeling and it provides a great sounding board. It's amazing how actually saying something out loud can make you look at a situation in new ways that might help you out. And don't worry about your parents, they sound like they love you and all parents want to help. Their focus will be on helping you, just be truthful and upfront about everything. At the very least you can benefit from their supportive understanding, even if they can't solve your problems.

Good luck!