My baby ball died yesterday. I need help please

[YungRasputin]

I lost my BP last year and when I revisit the old threads about him I feel the pain anew. So, I understand and sympathize with your loss. It's natural to take time to mourn. When the pain fades, go someplace where you can encounter these wonderful creatures (e.g. shop, expo, zoo), and I'm confident your desire to keep them will be renewed.

i v much second this - my Chilean Rose Hair T i had for nearly 15 years hit me so hard i gave up keeping arachnids all together for 5+ years because it was all just so tremendously painful but we all take the time we do to mourn and in time, when one is ready, then you can get back in the game - i’m so v sorry for your loss OP!