Thank you for understanding. It has been a day of grief for sure. I didn't even expect my vet to call so early and be so upset as well. I am surprised I got through the conversation. I know what you mean about the pit of your stomach thing. I have had it all day. I still keep going over and over, was she cold, was she hot, was I not offering food enough? But everyone including the vet said what was done should have been done. So I guess I have just have to feel the emotions I am feeling to get through it. Yes the other snakes do need to be taken care of. You are right. One of our cornsnakes escaped after Thanksgiving. We were beside ourselves. Trying to find him. He actually showed up on our blinds in the window 2 weeks later. We just got that relief and we're so happy. This is a more permanent feeling, I'll never get her back. I was so excited about starting breed (not wanting to be a big breeder). Just something we wanted to do for a long time. This has me rethinking it. I don't know if I have the strength to get through stuff like this. I get too attached. I mean what if she would have made it into adulthood and I bred her and she got eggbound and something happened. I probably would feel worse. Cuz I put her in that position. I have a beautiful Plastel Butter Yellowbelly who eats great and is getting so big. She is over a year old I was going to breed to my male banana cinnamon butter that just turned a year old the day I took this little girl to the vet. In a couple of years of course cuz they are still young and need to grow more. But this whole thing has blue really sad and not sure I want to do it.