Thank you for the responses guys. So the main problem is vet, yea i admit i don't think that far when i decided to keep a snake, thought any vet will be able to treat my snake when they got sick etc. Until 2 days ago i call the nearest vet available to my place and he said that he won't be able to handle my problem since he only treat farm animals like cow, goat and chicken. To make a picture for u guys im living in this country called Indonesia where exotic vets are rarely available yet there is tons i mean tons of reptile keepers. So am i the only irresponsible reptile keeper? No. So are my actions regarding my pets acceptable? No.
I have stated when i started this thread that i am desperate looking any answer that at least comfort my nerves so i can think clearly what is the best option to do.
If you say, "yea in this case you better give your snake to someone else". I doubt that someone else can give better treatment to my snake if not killed her with their own home remedies.
Have you ever know that in Indonesia almost all kind health problem regarding exotic animals are D.I.Y thing? Probably not, because maybe you people think that everytime someone made a post, they must be from a pretty developed country in the subject of animal care.
Please guys im not trying to judge anyone here, i am just looking for possible solutions.
And i write it one more time if you guys dont believe me try find at least one exotic vet on google that is available in Indonesia.
Thank you. If you find this post offensive or just pure rant just tell me, i will delete it.