I'm going to attempt to try a different form of response to try and help you understand what you are doing...
Imagine you are with your parents whom have complete control over you and are responsible for your care, well being and quality of life. The ONLY emotion you have is to protect yourself that's it. You have a "safe place" in your room where it stays dark and you are terrified of big open areas and get REALLY stressed out when someone who is 20 times your size comes and takes you from your "safe space."
Every single day you are removed from that safe space and put into an environment where you are not comfortable and you search countless hours for another safe space that you can't find. You are then picked up, stressed out and put back into your safe space.. You are now on high alert of this happening again because you have no control of it. You are stressed to the max constantly.. Every time your parents try to feed you, you won't eat because you feel sick, stressed out and scared. Then imagine repeating that day after day after day after day. This is what that snake is feeling and the reason he won't eat and has "spazz out" moments like that.
We are truly trying to help you in this thread as others have said. You have also come to us in complete breakdown mode when the snake does something out of the usual BECAUSE of the environment and care you provide it.
I think this forum is a great place and is filled with good, knowledgeable people but they also are smart enough to understand that coddling you as an owner is only harming the animal. You are going to do what you are going to do regardless of what we say it seams so the next time you are panicked and scared when the snake exhibits a behavior you aren't used to and haven't experienced you need to realize that fear and panic you feel is what you are putting that snake through every day.
