Of course this belongs here...and we all lose loved ones in our lives, there's just no way around it. It's especially hard, the younger we are and the first times
that it happens. We lose pets and we lose friends & family, but in our hearts & our thoughts, they're still with us always. I think your grandmother was trying
to tell you that as best as she could. It's more than OK to be sad, but she also wants you to go forward with your life...to be glad you knew her and to build on
all you've shared with her. So here's some more "virtual hugs"...the pain you feel now will get better in time. It will.... Hugs!