I am on your side here. I just know that before I purchased Rainbow I asked several breeders about getting experience with retics before getting one and hit a few roadblocks. One of the roadblocks was earning their trust enough to let me come see their place. Breeders often get what they call "groupies" that are just wanting the "large snake experience". Try and never get discouraged. Thankfully I got Rainbow and have worked with her without the "apprenticeship" so to speak that I wanted.