As a proud, independent woman in her prime, I was immediately put off by the tone, and by the third sentence I was not interested and ready to move on to reading something more interesting. It sounds self-absorbed, immature, like you're perfect and you're looking for perfection in return.
This screams to me that you still aren't ready and need to do more soul searching. Figure out what you need to work on with yourself... figure out the things you'd like to work on with someone else. You're still looking for something easy. Life with someone isn't about perfection together, it's about being flawed together, and still making it work. It's HARD. There are days where it's a grind, and yeah sometimes I just flat out don't like my person, because Lord knows he isn't perfect, and most especially not perfect for me. But I still love him.
This is my opinion of course, for what it's worth.