Let me start off by saying I am sorry you are going through this. I choose a more natural approach to healing my anxiety and depression. I was over weight and went through a divorce almost 10 years ago. It felt like my life was over. I decided one day to make some changes. Like you, I had reached a point where I didn't like myself or anything about my life. I went vegan for several years. Went from 330lbs to 185lbs. I began to do more things outside. Camping, hiking, etc.... Slowly over the course of a year I transformed my life into something I can and am happy with again. I went from struggling with depression, anxiety, heart disease, fatty liver, and diabetes to healthy, medication free, and full of life. No life is not a cake walk but it is much more enjoyable and people enjoy being around me again. If you don't like your life, make a change. A good change! Keep in mind it takes time and dedication to do it my way but it was well worth it.
Amazing !
PS
I guess my post was ALSO about making changes ..