thankyou K. i wasn't feeling that defensive just wanted to reiterate myself better.
but yea i do feel that i would know when my snake was sick. the paranoia comes from people i've come to know on the internet that are obviously doing all the right things, have kept many snakes for years, and then said one suddenly died. i guess the person/snake i have in mind was a very young gtp. that probably has something to do with. i'm sure that i'm doing a wonderful job i just get overlyconcerned about things that i love soo much. that's a snake mother for you...