She's gone - i'm heartbroken, furious, and guilty

[triggerfinger]

Sorry for the lengthy post.

I went to Repticon this past Saturday and bought a blood python from a reptile "rescue". I was so excited and trustful of these people(because they're supposedly a rescue), that I didn't get too offended by how roughly they were handling her when they put her in a bag (not to mention they put her in there really quickly) or that they didn't let me hold her because she was "nippy". I didn't take her out of the bag until I got home because I didn't want her to be too stressed, but when I did, I realized the poor thing was practically drowning in her own mucous. Her nose was pouring bubbles and her mouth and trachea looked disgusting. I took her to the vet and she was prescribed Baytril injections every other day. The first few injections went great. She seemed a bit more lively, but no improvement with the nose or mouth discharge and she would literally blow a giant bubble anytime she opened her mouth. Today, I gave her her injection like normal, but she wiggled and the needle went in pretty far for a second before I managed to keep her still and give it properly. However, there was a bit of blood when I pulled the needle out. I got a really weird feeling about it, but she seemed completely fine and I left to go into work for a couple of hours. I came back to a dead snake about two and a half hours later. Her water bowl was tipped over, there was urine everywhere, and she had a giant snot bubble the size of her head coming from her mouth.

I know I gave the injection in the muscle, but I feel like the needle may have pierced something it shouldn't have when she moved, and I feel so guilty. I want to believe she passed because she was so sick and stressed. I also noticed she was severely dehydrated as well, which I guess I missed because I tried not to mess with her too much during her treatment, so I feel awful for that as well. I feel like I killed my snake, and I haven't stopped crying about it since I found her. I am very new to this, I know things happen, and I have learned so much from this, but I am overwhelmed with guilt. I am also furious at the "rescue" for selling me a sick animal. I left a review on their Facebook page. It was very calm and respectful, but honest. They had it removed from their page and blocked me. They know what they did, and they silenced me immediately to keep up their good image.

Anyway, R.I.P sweet girl. You were dealt a crappy hand and I wish I could have saved you and given you the long, happy life you deserved. I'm so sorry.