Yah killing the mice and rats using the cervical dislocation method was not fun at all. I remember watching a YouTube video on how to do it and just thinking to myself "can I really do this?" It took me about an hour to actually kill the first rat because I felt sooooo baaaaaaad. But it got easier and knowing that my ball python will benefit is the only reason I did it. I am thinking about moving to Colorado to be a wind turbine technician and im pretty sure they dont have that many reptile shops around so getting him on f/t is SOOO BIG for me knowing I can have him all his life.