Quote Originally Posted by PhoenixGate View Post
Thank you. I have this really horrible feeling I'm never going to see him again. I live in an area where it freezes during the winter and we're only a month and a half away from that happening.

I've had Asher since I was fourteen. I don't want to give up on him, but he's never been out this long. He hasn't turned up at the local shelter and no one has responded to my advertisements.

It doubly hurts that my mom died in March. I had a complicated relationship with her, and it wasn't all good. Still, she was my mom and I'm still feeling the echos of that loss. Really the last two years have been just loss after loss. I'm tired, I'm broken and I fought long and hard to be able to keep my cats through several emergency moves (one included being in a homeless shelter for three months). After all that, and he just runs away. It's not fair. It hurts. The worst part is I can't properly grieve, because there's a chance Asher might be out there and alive somehow.
I'm sorry to hear about your mom. Unfortunately the losses do seem to come together.

It sounds like you're doing all you can to find him, and we can only do what we can do. I know exactly what you mean about not being able to properly grieve. My first cat died shortly after my youngest went missing. Its two completely different set of emotions. The death is very raw and everything just kind of comes out at once. But when they're missing it keeps you up at night, never really leaves your thoughts, and its a really empty feeling.