I hear you and I have been there. I purchased my black lab pup on a whim without even intending to buy a dog that day, and he has been my pride and joy ever since. Sometimes you feel a connection to an animal. No one would say you did anything wrong. Coming to this forum for advice was a great start. People here have a wealth of knowledge. Just keep in mind all of us are giving opinions not facts. What works for one might not work for another. Good luck!