You have to remember our first thoughts and posts are for the animals well being. I dont care how you take it, they are the first and most important thing.
The rest of the information we choose to share is for you. We have all started in about the same situation you are in.
Many of us did not have people willing to divulge the information that many have tried to pass on to you.
I am glad you are opening your eyes. The help is here IF you are willing to take it.