Thats understandable. I care for all my animals as well. 2 weekends ago had to put 1 of my dogs down (she was 15 and had cancer) and i will be doing something random and she will pop into my head and i will start crying. Thank goodness i am a welder and can just pull my hood over my face and no one can see me.and if there is anything i can do. Im just a click away.