your not haha
ok OP im going to give you some "tough" advice its not meant to insult it was something that was told to me when I started...when it comes to assist feeding hatchlings its not uncommon at all. I have to do it all the time. your well past when I would start. you are at risk of losing your snakes now. especially in hatchlings if you can actually notice weight loss your wayyy past not wanting to assist feed. its not a bad thing. it shouldn't be a last resort when it comes to getting hatchlings to eat. its how ball pythons are. I can see how it could be scary to somebody like yourself but honestly its part of breeding balls. if your not prepared to do it don't breed. simple as that. because sooner or later youre going to have a clutch that doesn't eat. so either learn to assist feed, give them to somebody who will, or stop breeding.
its not pretty.. but it saves lives. its not about shoving food in their throat. they actually learn what food is and begin to eat on their own a lot faster this way than if you just starve them. and you may say oh well im giving them food im not starving them they just aren't eating. by your lack of willingness to take action you are in fact starving them. sometimes they need guidance.