I know what you are going through, I recently rehomed my male pastel, who was my first snake ever. It was really tough, but what helped me through it the most was knowing that he went to a great home. When somebody contacts you, ask to see their setup and what their future plans are with them. I was very happy to find that the folks who were interested were a family that was just getting started with snakes and had a fantastic setup ready to go before they even contacted me. My first snake turned into their first snake, and they are absolutely loving him. Before this, O turned down a local home that would have meant more profit for me because the guy seemed to be rushing into a commitment he was not prepared for. I think that knowing that my little boy is just as happy and healthy as he was with me is really comforting. Hope this helps!