That's hilarious about your naming it! Mine was marketed as being "charcoal" gray but I refer to it as "gunsmoke" gray, lmao! My current one has taken a beating as well and I'm on number three from the original one they put me on after upgrades and whatnot. I'm sorry you're in a bit of funk, that sucks but I hear ya' on that. Two years ago in May I wrecked as a result of an insulin/hypoglycemic reaction and broke my femur, several ribs, collapsed a lung and bruised the other, etc. so I can relate to feeling the "weight" of living with and trying to manage this disease, especially long-term. It gets old in a hurry, lol! Don't let it beat you, even if it gets you down for a few.