Overcoming self-loathing

[angllady2]

Poor dear.

I know what you are going through. Maybe not exactly the same, but close enough I feel your pain. It stems from depression hon. And no, depression is not a dirty word. Depression is very real, and it can cause some very serious problems in your day to day life. Heck, sometimes it affects you from one hour to the next, or even minute to minute. I know, I live it every day. The best thing you can do for yourself is to seek professional help.

I know how that sounds, but seeing a counselor or even a psychiatrist does not make you crazy or even defective. It makes you smart. You are smart enough to admit you are in over your head, and you know you need someone to guide you through. It's scary yes, lord how it's scary taking that first huge step and reaching out. But I cannot begin to tell you how much better you will feel once you begin to understand what causes these feelings. And even more amazing, you don't have to feel that way. I cannot express what an unbelievable idea that is, that you don't have to feel the way you do. Now, the changes won't happen overnight, but they do happen. You will have periods of ups and downs, that's ok. Just stick with it and they become less and less of an issue.

It is your life hon, and you don't have to let these feelings rule you. You can make the choice to control them, and when you do it's a wonderful thing. I wish you all the best, and I mean that very sincerely. As someone who lives with fairly major depression myself, I want you to know you don't have to be in this alone.

Gale