Maybe not quite to that degree, but, yes. The last 2 years have been the hardest of my life. Having the ability to recognize that you're in trouble (you are) and do something about it are key. For the longest time I felt like deserved my pain and didn't want to feel better.
I never wanted to rely on medical intervention, but I've found that anti-depressants can help mellow out the lows and allow you to deal with your problems much more rationally. There is no shame in it!
Please get help.