Well, you're already doing better than I could. Being arachnaphobic, I doubt I'd manage to agree to even keep one.

Most of the time, I can keep my phobia under control, so I can walk through a store where tarantulas and scorpions are displayed without any problem. However, I think it would take a long time and a lot of work for me to reach the point where I could reach into a tarantula's enclosure and do any clean up or refill his water dish.

Phobias may not be rational, but they are real.

One shop that I know of that regularly carries these creatures is Tribal Reptiles in Redlands, California. They have a web site, though whether they would be happy to answer any e-mailed questions or not, I cannot say.