Damn brother, I'm sorry to read this. To be honest when I gave my cousin my snakes last summer it was for good, but when he asked me to take them back I was elated and have gotten even more into it since then. Do you have anyone that could take them on the condition that you could have them back if you changed your mind? I'd be happy to do that for you if I were home, but if you can wait a few months I may be able to help. I hope that whatever you do decide brings you the most fulfillment and pleasure as is possible.