I'm sorry for your loss, I can sort of understand how you feel.
Not Right Now was played at all three of my friends funerals, they were all in the 10th grade, we were all friends, yet they committed suicide without each other....first it was Rachael, Jake, then Nikki. I don't like listening to that song because of memories.
I'll stop there because (to quote Mike) vomit my emotions all over this thread and I don't think anyone would like that haha.