Quote Originally Posted by evan385 View Post
Well there's a free confidential depression screening at my school tomorrow, maybe i'll go.
Definately go for it. I had gone through this recently not for me but my younger brother. He had been in the military but I still don't think he had PTSD. He was a single father to a 10 year old son. Him and his son moved back to NJ in early 2010. That fall things wheren't going well fo him espescially money. He would call while I was at work multiple days and tell me he wasn't doing well. He promised me he was going to see professional help. Before Thanksgiving that year he was on the phone with the woman he had been dating and mentioned killing himself. She called 911 police showed up and brought him in for an evaluation. He spent a week in a facility where they later released him and said he was ok. Christmas day that year he spent with our mom, his son, and my fiancee. He had been crying alot that day but kept saying he was ok. He left to go spend some time at his girlfriends house. I still remeber the conversation when she called me 30-45 minutes later saying she think had had a gun and was walking into the woods. She called the police and I jumped in the car and headed over on and off the phone with her. It was about 10 minutes away. About 4 minutes or so before I got to her house he sent me a text saying nothing more then he was sorry and goodbye. When I arrived the police where there. They wouldn't let me go back and I just remeber seeing flashilights as they walked around. Then one sole officer walked back to the house. She asked Me, my fiancee, and his girlfriend if any of us had been an immidiate family member. I knew then what happened. I know first hand what it can do for a family. He was 38 and left behind a 10 year old son and a family that cared for him. There is not a day since that I still think I could have stopped it in some way. So please go and see a counselor it can't hurt. Also feel free to send me a pm if you want to talk more.