I agree with all that's been said. I too have been there and have been hospitalized for a week due to my attempt and suicide. It was a foolish thing to do over a non permanent problem. My friends weren't really friends but I didn't have anyone else to hangout with, they would tell me my sad moods brought everyone down and I needed to suck it up because peolpe don't like being around depressed people and that if I ever wanted to keep a girlfriend I needed to knock it off. So I started cutting and burning myself, I at one time burned "I hate me" on my forarm for all to see, hoping to get some needed help and prove that my problem was real to people. I was seeing a girl on and off at the time and she wouldn't date me again because I had hurt her to many times....that along with my horrible friends led me to the night in which I tried to take my life into my own hands. I was already on several meds and so I took about 20 xanax, my mom saw me do it and tried to wrestle the pills free, but I had already swallowed them. I was immediately taken to the hospital which was all a blur as I was not all there, they pumped my stomach and luckily the pills hadn't fully dissolved in that time, I was hooked to fluids and was stable by the next day. I spent another 4-5 days in there seeing numerous therapist and psychiatrist. Eventually I was allowedto go but I couldn't be in charge of my meds or be left alone. It was an eye opening moment for my parents as they didn't know it was that serious.
I started seeing a therapist every few days and we tweaked my meds till something worked. That is what helped me most. Getting out of hs was second. I can say now that I never think of suicide. I still have several times where I want to cut but I can restrain myself and I haven't since that night 2 years ago. I also quite smoking as well which helped me too. I still want to smoke everyday but know I better off without.
I hope my story helps, its hard out there, but nothing last and can only get better if you make it.
Feel free to pm me whenever. I'm always willing to help and listen.
Kevin
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