Your time will come, with the right person. Don't give up hope on that. They say when one door closes, another opens. I am a firm believer in things happen for a reason. Several years ago I lost my favorite cat to cancer, at a very young age. It was the first death my daughter had to deal with. Hind sight, I believe it was preparing her for the death of her grandfather to cancer a year later. She know her papa and kitty are up there together. Stay strong.